I Think Too Much
I thought:
one day I'll be happy
one day I'll be handsome
one day I will travel the world
one day I will have friends from every corner of the globe
one day I'll look in the mirror and find the love of my life
one day I'll know everything
one day I will meet god
and ask them what the fuck they were thinking
Time
We say time is a line
/clock
/face
/hand
What time is it?
As if there's an answer. So,
I point my finger at the clock
on the wall, in the dining room
that has been there
for Forever,
as if it is the answer to the question.
When in fact, it is the tip of my finger
/the wave of sun breaking the clouds
/the end of the line drawn in my mind
/my parents' mind
/their parents' mind
/their parents's mind...
for Forever.
Someone stops me and asks,
"What's the time?" So,
I point to my face
/to my father's hand holding a fish by its gill
/to the sun through the cut crystal vase my mother has filled with freshly cut peonies from the backyard and I say:
It is time.
Safe Place
The forest floor was covered in soiled mattresses in varying states of decay. A plastic Steinberg bag was gripped by the branches of a sapling, its limbs crooked and desperate, as it sought out the few sun beams that broke through the canopy. This was the forest. This is where I felt safest. This is where I needed permission to go.
Lithospherical Cardiographical
A description of the core of the Earth:
Convective currents,
Expanding heated tides,
Droning universal beat,
Glittering gold particles,
And the metallic taste of blood.
A description of my human heart:
Convective currents,
Expanding heated tides,
Droning universal beat,
Glittering gold particles,
And the metallic taste of blood.
Body Memory
Blood boils
Semen glows
Tears float
Sweat glitters
the Body knows.
Blood circulates
Semen replicates
Tears evaporate
Sweat emanates
the Body remembers.
Blood rush
Semen stain
Tear up
Sweat out
the Body accepts.
Hide or Seek
You'll find me in the garden where the lilacs bloom, where the ants march 3 by 3, where the moon can be seen through the stems of roses (thorns in silhouette), where there are rainbows of green, where a snake pretends to be a garden hose, where the spiders shoot silk from their butts, where the peonies grow large and erect.
You'll find me in the corner of the backyard where the grass is hard and yellow, where I saw a bird and a bee doing it, where it smells like urine, where the cicada drones louder, where the sun causes cancer faster, where the gravity of the Earth pulls just a teensy bit more, and the soil has been worn down to the bedrock we call a shield but is really a piece of the first land to emerge in a sea of fire.
Light Refracts
Light acts as both a particle and a wave
As if to say, you can be this and that
As if to say, you can exist in multiple states of being;
A multiplicity of contrasts
As if to say, it's possible to laugh and cry
at the same time
As if to say, you can be happy and angry and sad at
once
As if to say, you are the person you have
always been and wished to be this whole
time
Light acts as both a particle and a wave
Emotion Metaphors Paired with Palate Cleansers
Anger is:
Summer in July
ozone depleted,
infrared sun,
sky is a violet violence.
Escape to cool chlorine waters.
Shame is:
Corner of Backyard
weeds thrive,
fingers find roots,
earth is a burst capillary.
Run to cool chlorine waters.
Intimate Degenerates
1st Date
forearms graze
2nd Date
bodily fluids mix
3rd Date
discussions of unresolved childhood trauma
4th Date
sex in public park
5th Date
displays of strong moral character
6th Date
cut each other's hair
7th Date
resonate anxiety frequencies
8th Date
challenge monogamous monotony
9th Date
hold hands in metro station at rush hour
10th Date
first kiss